WITHOUT ANY FEAR


I am just a reflection,
Seeking your affection,
A mere shadow
Who behind you will show,
Am like the ever spreading fragrance,
Covering everything in my essence, 
Disbanding and dissolving,
Crumbling and scattering,
Please do not stop me,
I plead with thee.


Once you all see me scattered around,
In the air, on the ground,
No one should try to gather me,
To come and collect me,
Try to give me shape and form,
Putting together the fragments deformed,
I shiver and shudder,
My heart flutters,
To think that those people may read your name
On my lips, or see your picture, the same
In my eyes, drawn all all over 
Me,my heart , shaking my composure.


I want to be left alone,
To stay untouched,unknown,
Along with the melancholy
And all the follies,
That you had gifted
Me and had blamed,
My dreams you shredded,
Never you regretted,
My eyes are now scared,
Of all dreams,that anyone's eyes nurtured,
They fear they will be done to bits,
Will be torturously hit,
They will hurt and bleed,
Never be freed 
Of the excruciating pain,
Coming back again and again.


The day we met,makes me feel embarrassed,
My entire self feels harassed,
You stimulated me and then left,
Of my senses bereft,
The passions you ignited ,
Then dampened and extinguished,
My beautiful life that He created,
You vilified and damaged,
Today here I am completely devastated,
Still my heart to you is affiliated,
I peep into the pictures of the past,
Hoping they will return to me at last,
Turn over the pages to see the dried flower,
Waiting for the old times,each passing hour.


Nobody passes by now,
No one known walks down the lanes now,
Through the open door,peeps in no expectation,
Flies in no expectancy,no anticipation,
Not a voice echoes,
No sound resonates, 
Not a footstep is heard,
Nor any life stirs,
Only my heart waits and pumps,
Waits with abated breath and thumps,
For a mere shadow of you dear,
Your footsteps to hear,
The lanes of my world are deserted,
Desolate and evacuated,
Still living in the days departed,
Is my dainty heart,wounded yet big-hearted,
Looking forward to you,
Your vision, a look from you,
Creating me anew,
Before I finally bid adieu.


I believe, you will come once again dear,
To hold my hands and hold me near,
Out of the blue you will appear,
To surprise me and cheer,
Your voice once again 
I will hear and regain 
Consciousness,murmur in your ears
Sweet nothings with smiling tears,
Still holding my hands, you will be there,
So that happily I go,without any fear.

©Madhumita