TURBULENCE 

I look around aimlessly,

Feeling my pains, painlessly,

An emotional turbulence enraptured within,

But just a feelingless bundle of bones, flesh and skin,

I sit and watch everything

Without an iota of understanding,

I laugh when I am supposed to mourn,

At times I just scream and scorn,

In happy moments I cry,

Oh! Why do not I feel, however hard I may try!

Now erratically swings my mood,

Scared of solitude,

Darkness and grey shadows engulf,

All feelings, emotions, people repulse,

Everything I view in great magnitudes,

Grievances attack me in multitudes,

Everything seems to have gone haywire,

My thoughts down in the deep, heavily mired,

Everything misconstrued, fearful thoughts intrude,

Losing all habitudes, I pray for your kindness,but shy away from your gratitude,

©Madhumita