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I wanted to leave my home for your home,
Here and there looking for it,did I roam,
The sky above painted in a monochrome, 
Wish the way to your home was written in a tome.

It was already late in the evening,
Dark clouds far off were looming,
In the thunderous gale,trees scaringly moving,
The silent dark shadows,different shapes assuming.

How could I travel so late and alone,
To streets and roads unknown,
Out in the dark,on my own,
To guide me,when not a single star shone.

How could I inform you of my coming,
When I actually meant nothing,
You keep moving and running,
The entire day doing something.

I know your work means everything to you,
If you kept away from me,what would I then do,
How could I see my truth turn untrue
And then sadly,forced to bid adieu.

Our destinies were not meant to meet,
Not meant to walk together were our feet,
We were not to make each other complete,
Was not it good for my heart to retreat!

What would I do with the sun,the moon,
The stars,when you were forgetting me soon,
The nights too were hot and bitter like the noon,
Your ignoring me, would make me swoon.

You wanted a free run,
Without any distraction,
Under the blazing sun,
You wanted to be alone and have fun.

I wanted to protect you by running ahead,
Creating a shade that my arms made,
My reflection too would try to shade
You, but to lose you, I was afraid.

My presence was reduced to mere dust,
Just stand still, I must, 
Why were you so cruel,so unjust?
Why could not you live up to my trust?

Still I wanted to create love jewels,
From the ashes, pick out some pearls,
Thinking like a mindless fool,
Asking for a relationship renewal.

You had already carved out your own way,
Your feet wandered,lead you far,astray,
I was left far away, 
In my own world to decay.

How could my home be your heart!
Although I wanted to be a part
Of you, never ever to depart, 
But destiny drew us apart.

Your love left,and left all decency,
I bowed out in discomfort,uneasily,
My love for you, did try to weaken me,
But I fought back resolutely.

Your love had failed it's duty
And care, so had failed all tools of my beauty
And charm,in holding onto you passionately,
Taking each other in, whole heartedly.

Dead are your passions,
All your affections,
Lost are my happiness and gay abandon,
Lost is my trust in Love's empathy and emotion.

©Madhumita